Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Almost Love

let me just hurt tonight
i ran out of words for you
love isn't love
and true isn't true

i ran out of words for you
but the rain is coming
i smell it on the wind
whipping and screaming like a train

just let me cry tonight
what could i say
love like a waterfall washing away

but love isn't love
and true isn't true
i ran out of words for you

or maybe i do
believe in a kiss like sunrise breaking the day


Wednesday, January 23, 2013

I Used To Be On Fire

he smiled
i loved him
i told him everything i had
but time started slipping
he stopped coming home

i stood alone in the cold
a swollen moon chased Orion
the two of them dancing forever that way
they've done this before
the lead and the follow
the heart and the hollow

i used to be on fire

i tore out the phone and died when he left
a long time of crying and beer
and strangers 
over and over were strangers staring at me
touching my hair
it's like they could see it
my broken light 

i used to be on fire

i locked the doors and cried myself raw when he left
i loved him
never pictured the end
then i saw his eyes 
her red hair mirrored there

he said he was leaving
the memory still stabs me

i used to be on fire

the heart and the hollow
such a perfect pair

It was a long time ago, but I feel it again. Beautiful love somehow changing.

Monday, January 21, 2013

So Tired Of This Unfinished Song 

I needed to spin in the softness
taste candy on your lips
i propped you up in butterscotch and fantasy
love me?
i don't even know you
just footprints in the snow

corner me
kiss me
push your hands through my hair

turn me and spin me 
the sun is still down
i trampled through midnight's fresh snow on the ground
spin me and kiss me

shattered diamonds around
spin me and hold me
dusty prints stamp the ground

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Asking The Sky

Daybreak stains the horizon -- she wipes tangerine streaks low on a waking sky. 
I am here again, where I have always been at my window throwing wishes at the dawn.


I look at a half moon in the sky
tracing empty hearts against the night
the stars never answer
if you'll ever be mine

I only want a couple things
happy and satisfied

Friday, January 18, 2013

If I Was Not Drinking I would Be Crying

I got trouble
it eats away at me
how do i pay off my sorrows
and all the things that haunt me

i fell in love, you know how it goes
rainbows and daydreams
but oh, the troubles

reach into your guts for everything you've got
and use it like a bomb
do it again tomorrow, promise me
easy as stirring coffee
it's a never-ending wave
a dawn forever breaking

if freedom ever comes it might be more than i can do
hold my hand

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Just A Cold January Thought

tears on my cheeks
a dirty wine glass

can you tell me if i could be
something to you

the music ended
i had these empty dreams 

tell me 
what good could i be to you

i stay up at night
pour myself a glass
tell me
what am i to you

sinking sun and wintry cold
who am i to you

i feel like a stone
gotta take back my levity
gotta shine like a lighter soul

what if i never caught your eye
tell me
between me and you


Again, i promised myself and my dormant writer's heart that I would throw a few words on the page. Didn't say I would bring them to life again, but I will get there.

Monday, January 14, 2013

I got this broken poem…

a wintry soul
nobody's fault
love grows cold
love grows cold
no one's fault but my own

where did it go?

your laughter was a sunrise
your touch was like a flood tide
gotta tell you that i'm angry 
gotta tell you that it hurts

can you let me go
just let me go

the winter sky is raining
let me go
just let me go


They held hands under an umbrella on the sidewalk in the rain. A woman and her child moved up the library's steps Monday, and left me wondering.


I have not been feeling it lately, but I will write things down. that's gotta do more than nothing at all…

Monday, January 7, 2013

A Midnight Thought

My roadkill heart
messy eyes
i love you
my soul's undressed

fingers like vines
your dagger smile
i love you
A long time ago in anger he told me, you don't have to like it.
I don't.

beautiful sunlight on vanilla snow is just an impression you know

i've got a bucket of stardust
i've got dreams to share
we can start so slow so slow
press against me
see where we go

timid smile
honey on my lips
take a sip
gentle gentle gently
fill gaps i can't see
quiet quiet quietly

shooting stars flew
five overhead and i remember you
under a sullen January moon
orange on the horizon and drifting over town
tossing shadows around me
quiet quiet quietly
Life's a riot sometimes. Like when you're sitting in the car in the cold with breath misting quiet air. You just wanna throw your whole life out there in a rush, a stone in the well, but you don't.
I would write more, but I am just not feeling it. The words are all so forgettable to me. The spark is missing. That little snap of life that warms you forever or burns you down.
A new year started and I need to get my head back in it. Gotta dust off the sadness and pry my soul free.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

For You

i love you, no matter what happens
and you’ve always been right
about our life 
the snow 
the sunrise
good things that fall apart
you say i’ve gotta grow up

bloodshot eyes 
i'm coming unglued

whatever happens, i love you


I got a debt i can't pay
he loves me so much

he's crying at me
just being myself
but not enough

i got this debt i can't pay
says i don't kiss him anymore
and doom at my door

got this debt that's so heavy
i think i'm afraid

dull eyes and tired face 
so am i, he tells me


sometimes things gotta change
water to ice
clouds to rain
things don't always stay the same

i feel it coming
such a slow tide

sometimes things gotta change
smoke to fire
dusk to black
things we got don't always remain